It seems this past week Tate and I have been very good at not getting along. We haven’t been having knock down drag out fights, just little irritations that leave me feeling not as close to my husband. Inevitably it leads to a reduced level of communication as you are driving each other so crazy. This of course only exacerbates the problem. Instead of sharing little nothings throughout the day and the end of the night, we sit quietly. We are together but divided.
It is exactly these times that I thank God for the gift of daily Mass and prayer in front of the tabernacle. Kneeling in front of Jesus my cold hardened heart begins to thaw. I desire to be reconciled. I am left with no excuse as to why to hold on to whatever injury I may feel I was subject to. Yes, the warmth of the Son of God refreshes my soul and reminds me to seek unity.
As I apologized to Tate, and he to me, I told him I couldn't help but feel the Lord had something He wanted us to be working on together, and that was why the devil was all over us. Of course, I was allowing myself to become distracted. The devil can only tempt, it is my free will to succumb to sin.
That night, back to our normal communication, don't you know we both had a similar idea of something we wanted to possibly bring to our parish. Whether or not this idea comes to be is irrelevant, the point is we are back to working TOGETHER to know, love, and serve the Lord.
Distractions. How often the Father of Lies whispers in my ear and I allow myself to become distracted by sin. I cease to listen and respond to the Holy Spirit. Instead of the peace and warmth of God, I find myself cold and frustrated with myself. This is not what God desires for me as His cherished daughter. He wants me to be one with Him and my husband.
If you are feeling hurt or are struggling to forgive, go to God. Kneel before him in adoration and let the Son shine on you. You will not remain unchanged. This process takes time and is often slowed by our own hardness of heart. But God desires to show us the path to unity and reconciliation. Only He can soften our hardened hearts. We must unite our will to His and He will give us the courage and strength we need.
This weekend we celebrate the Solemnity of the Most Holy Trinity. The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit are our ultimate example of unity in all things. In our second reading this weekend from Corinthians Paul exhorts us:
“Brothers and sisters, rejoice.
Mend your ways, encourage one another,
agree with one another, live in peace,
and the God of love and peace will be with you.
Greet one another with a holy kiss.
All the holy ones greet you.
The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ
and the love of God
and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with all of you.”
He is speaking directly to me, to all of us.
Please keep us in your prayers that we continue to focus our combined efforts in serving and loving the Lord. This is what we are called to do. Pray that I do not allow myself to be distracted and waste precious time being divided instead of united. This should be our prayer for all our marriages. Be assured of my prayers for you. JMJ